4 weeks ago I became a college student, again. It has been 16 years. Wow! What have I bit off? Is it more than I can chew?
I already know that time management is my biggest problem. There are always things I could be doing instead of studying, reading, watching online class videos or taking quizzes. I'm not just a college student now but I'm a full time wife and mother. So many areas calling out for attention.
The 8 yr old, 3rd grader, who is also a first time Bible Quizzer. She has homework every night, reviewing of her verses and learning new ones. She is Amazing!!! She has currently memorized 122 verses from the Book of Acts. She is away at school 7 hours of the day and bides for attention the moment she enters the car.
The active 5 yr old who would love nothing more than to be in school right now. She is so tender and sweet towards her baby sister but loves when I lay her down for a nap because then it's mommy time. Today we put a puzzle together, played Sleeping Queens, Uno, Connect Four and Wig Out.
Sweetie pie, 19 month old has her schedule and desires nothing more than to keep her mommy in tune with it. Between feeding her, diaper changes, play time and cuddle time she keeps me busy.
Then there's the husband, who leaves every morning at 6am and returns no earlier than 6pm every night.
Let's not forget the never diminishing mountain of laundry, dishes, toys that get strung out and clutter that seems to pile up every time I turn my head.
So how do moms do it all?
Sometimes I feel so completely overwhelmed that I would like nothing more than to climb into bed and hide from everything. But, I can't. People need me. People rely on me. So I have found that something gives every time. To the cringe of my spouse it happens to be the house right now. The clean clothes are not neatly folded or hanging in there respective places but in fact, rest carelessly on the small couch in the living room. (Yes, they are clean). The dishes get done but, not in a timely fashion.
Some who read this might immediatly chastise me in regards to the upkeep of my home. And I will quickly reply Yes! I Agree! But, as I said earlier, Time Management is my issue right now. So today I've decided I will focus on 1 room a day, and I will focus on completing 1 load of laundry a day. (completing means: wash, dry, fold/hang and put away) and before I head to bed (whatever the time may be) I will make sure the dishwasher is running.
I understand this is a season in my life and I've decided to name it "motherhood going back to school". During this season I'm expecting to hit some highs and lows. I'm expecting pruning (spiritually) and possible drought-like conditions but Through it All I Will be trusting in the one who holds my tomorrow in His hands. I desire to go through this season in my life. I know I will be victorious in the end. Why? Because I'm not alone. When my heart gets overwhelmed I Know who the Rock is and I will ask Him to lead me.
So for you, my "blogging buddies"...if you happen to take a moment to read this chaotic blog, I wonder if you have an answer for this question? If you understand that life is like a Roller Coaster, filled with ups, downs, twists and turns, are you trying to be on the ride and at the control station at the same time?
I leave you with this verse (I Peter 5:6-7) NIV
"Humble yourselves ,therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast All your anxiety on Him because He cares for you"
